Growth!!!

Hey hey hey…. so it’s been a while. Well that’s because I’ve been doing life. My oldest son is on his way to manhood! He will graduate in 20 days and turn 18 in 4 days. I’m overjoyed! If you know my story you know my oldest three have been there through all the ups and downs. The time has come to reap the benefits of my harvest. My oldest will be come a Marine, although I’m Army for life, I will take that. I can say being a single mother with boys is hard. Thank God I married a good man that picked up the slack! I’m grateful for the blessings that I have been awarded. Let this Journey continue!

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Life

Ok its been a while since ive had a clear thought. Mostly because of me just doing life. I am getting ready to take a trip to St. CROIX. I have never been so it will be a new adventure. I have a big year ahead. My oldest son will graduate from highschool. This is scary because i will have kids leaving my house for the next three years. Oh man what a scary and proud time at the same time.

I will be going parasailing, horse back riding, and scuba diving. I am ready for these new things, new adventures. I have always wanted toget in a hot airballon and next month I hope to do this.

The trip that is long over do, is going to the keys. I will do that soon also. I plan to ride across the bridge from Miami to the keys. I getting my bike next week, i will ride in May. My son will be leaving for the Marines so i will need something to do.

When my second son leaves I will be going to Greece June 2020. This is my present to me.

With all this being said, life has a funny way of getting back on track. I go through moments where my past shows its face but the future keeps pulling me forward. I am enjoying every moment. Let my life be an example of making mistakes and allowing them to correct themselves.

Full circle

My grandmother has always said never seek revenge. She said the Universe had its way of coming back around and if your lucky you get to watch! Well i would not call it luck but, I am watching but not with joy! I think it is bad to bask in someone’s sorrow!

To know better is to do better!

Sitting in wait!

The worst thing a person can do is stay with a person they do not love. Love hate relationships are really tolerant and hate relationships. Not sure if life is long enough for that. It will not be butterflies and rainbows all the time but it should not be sadness everyday! Planning a long trip of alone time. Thoughts and health are out of sink.

UPS AND DOWNS

So i tried the shots for my M.S., they were aweful and made me sicker. So i stopped cold turkey. I return to the thought that ever experience I have had was preparing me for this. I remember the first time I tasted lemon grass. A friend said it cleanses the body. It tasted like crap. I remember thinking I will eat right so i dont have to clease. I am normally pretty good with this. Its when I am faced with stressful times when I feel myself falling off the wagon. I am down 5 pounds, I can see my six pack, I mean my stomach muscles again. I love riding my bike, it brings me peace. So, an early gift to myself a new bike.

BAD

Thoughts of being touched by the love of my life. The touch that lets every cell in my body know that its ok not to be perfect. Lets me know that it’s ok not to be strong. Lets me know that they are always there. The touch that reminds me that the troubles of the world dont matter as long as its you and me. The touch that relieves, stress, and pain! The touch that has gone away never to return but I still feel it. I still speak to it. I still yearn for it. I still wait for the return, even if its next life time!

New Meds

I have taken the second round for this Avonex! I took better to it this time. I wish I didn’t have to take it. I am on it for now. I think the universe is playing with me and I just wish it would stop. I dont want this medicine and I dont need my past popping up, especially if it’s not for my good! Just like this medicine I’m taking, it has side effects. When I take the medicine, I have chills and I run fevers. When my past pops up it takes me where I dont need to be. I just need to be in a good place so i can deal with my M.S. one day at a time. I think people dont understand that once you have gotten over something it, it starts all over again, when you are

forced to visit those memories! Anyways that’s my rant for today! Running to 99 1/2!